Today I will write about yesterday. When I say yesterday I mean no subject at all. That just sounded like a really swell way to get your attention.
PAST:
I have realized that when I was younger I lived a relatively unhappy life. On the outside I looked like a fun, content, well rounded boy. On the inside I was a fucking mess. Always wondering what I should do next, Where I should go, what will happen to me, etc. I dated fun, sweet, nice girls. I played sports (and was good at it.) I even went on trips and shit while all the while being filled with questions about who I am and where I was going. I made some enemies because I lied. I lied because I had no clue what the truth is (in a literal and metaphorical since.) And made enemies out of people I would have really liked to stay friends with.
PRESENT:
Today I don't lie. Period. I realized that lurking inside of me (and most people) is a person that would do things that most people aren't proud of. I decided that instead of lying to myself and everyone and trying to make them believe I was a good person I was just gonna be who I am, faults and all. I made up my mind that if you don't like me you can go fuck yourself and leave me alone. It's better that we don't get to involved because then we will end up lying to each other to make one another like each other (does that make fucking since at all) and then the truth will come out and we will inevitably hate one another or fight.
I do great things now honestly. I back the Bloggess Army (if you don't know what it is read my other blog posts.) I donate to charity, have amazing friends, date cool girls, and heathenize with minimum guilt. It's a great life.
MORAL OF THE STORY:
Just be honest.
Thank you for reading and have an honest day (faults and all.)
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I feel like I should be marching in a parade and carrying a flag with a giant Wooo-Hooo and your face on it. Calming down now- I agree more than I want to with your current post. I find I'm getting worse, no, no better the more I blog. Damn that Honesty.
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I love that. My life changed quite a bit also once I just accepted myself for who I was, faults and all. It's actually quite liberating!
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Nice to know that I have only known the new you! Don't be so hard on yourself. All the things you have listed are all a part of growing up. We all make mistakes and well sometimes it is hard to live with the person you are. Easier to cope with the person you allow people to think you are. Not until we get older do we realize that being who we are is inevitable and that we shouldn't and can't fight it. But props for finding how things should be.
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